the invention of a lie.

come to think about it.

i've never really posted abt you.






i really dont know where to start.



where to end.









heck.





i dun even know what to write.















remember. i always told you. if there was a best girlfriend award.





it would be you?





i really meant it.



probably this is all i could say?

i know the consequences of posting this as how the outsiders will look at me.

how your friends. will look at me.

how my friends. will look at me.

how she would feel.

how you. would feel.

but seriously. who would have predicted that i would have put down my huge ass ego once again.

take the time to think. what i have did right?

sometimes it is not really about the dignity.

it's about whether u want to confess or not. even though if you don't. no one will know. and your image wont be stained. make a beautiful lie.

or you can choose to confess. stain your image. destroy the beautiful lie. and live in the chaotic truth.

so why i choose to confess u ask? i really don't know seriously.

i. really don't know.

the emotions i have for you. is more like a sister.

and.

i want everybody to know. i mean. Everybody.

that i still care a hell load about you.

i also cant believe i just "set ourselves free"

seriously. until now. i don't think we are free.

we are still. in a way. slaves.

slaves of our deceptions.

our thoughts.

our sins.

you definitely cared the most for me out of all.

you are most certainly the most tolerant woman i have seen.

wait

perhaps the most tolerant woman should go to my beloved grandma.

but still.

it is really no use that i am posting this. it will only lure trouble. but the use is for myself to know. for myself to understand.

although i still don't know why.

i am not lost.

it was just an intuition.

an instinct

something right to do. i guess.

as much as this post seems like my pieces are cracking and falling apart.

but. i am telling u. it ain't.

it's just my shell is cracking apart. coming out a new. better layer of skin.

i hope.

i guess i just deal things differently. although i know this is not the wise move.

but for once. i would like to live in the world of truth.

the best girlfriend award goes to.

Denissa Goh Pei Jurn.

pikameow bi. pikameow.

daft punk - something about us

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

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