a new.

i got a new laptop.

a okay one la. i7. 4G ram. 500 gb. nvidia 1G.

been spending alot lately... =.=

and i aint feeling good about it.

gotta set my life straight. stable

Misha said that i need to restart. it aint gonna work out.

i said. u think computer meh.... like a button?

Jern said that i step out the wrong foot.

i am slowly agreeing.

Felicia keeps on questioning on the old zhen =.=

i am still the same felicia. or maybe not.

even if i did change. maybe its for the better.

Michelle : how long u plan to live?

me : until i am satisfied. i have to do everything :) EVERYTHING.

my favourite line of "do it now! worry laterr only!" is fading.

i have to admit.

i am feeling old. lol. wearing out.

now.

before i start my 2nd section. i would like to warn everyone that it'd wouldn't be that decent.

read it only if u want to.

no right or wrong. its a choice.

i know u are pissed off about the status. but maybe using the exact same words. IS provocative.

i have to say that we did step out the wrong foot. or maybe to be fair.

i stepped out the wrong foot.

and it has continued to be worse.

i know sometimes i can think too much. objectively speaking. i am guilty. no mercy.

subjective on the other hand. mayb u should know why i react like that.

as like you said. we can't communicate well. i agree again.

i am stuck between apologizing OR plainly laying out the facts.

as i've said before. we have so much to say. but yet so little to feel.

to the point where it doesn't matter much anymore.

atleast that is what i think.

however. the arguement sums up.

and i am definately overal wrong

no doubt about that! ahhhahaa.

and u popped a really good question. who am i in ur eyes.

exactly. i put real deep thought sincerely.

who am i right? ahahaha.

and i agree. i made it. so i will face the consequences : )

i can see clearer now.

the rain is slowing down. now its a drizzle.

cooling ones.

someone from last time who was really close to me said.

u can't mend the past. so change the future.

okay denissa :)

screw that past.

i am gonna make my darn future. i will and must make it.

to Felicia : the old zhen is definately gone. but patience. a better one is coming out :D

The Three Months Choice.

- gave me one of the hardest slap in life.

- saw one of the most beautiful things too :) but I AM SURE somethings out there can be even more better. just gotta make it.

- make me think like a-in-si-tea-ain

- made me really subjective towards certain issues.

and oh ya. happy b'day :)

i am not filled with positivity. nor negativity.

i wanna fill myself with more determination tho.

why change or improve.

because.

i wanna celebrate and live my life.

very much the time to improve the core again :)

las élites.

sinceramente,

zh3n