wrong.

I feel like the big words of this blog is wrong.

and many contents are wrong.

so i am changing.

not moving.

http://me-vs-beast.tumblr.com/

zh3n for the last time.

the beast and the mona lisa.

hey.

haha.

funny how i rarely use that word now a days.

hey.

the only thing right now that i feel is funny.

i used to tell people life is funny and a joke.

not reallising that i defined my life.

i am funny and i am a living joke.

before u continue reading. i would want to warn you.

that again. this post will not be colourful or interesting. it is of black and white. dull.

and if u decide to read. u would keep your opinions to yourself.

one last term. only people who care. can read.

because this is a story. a story of a man or boy. who had it all. and lost it all. over days.

sympathy is not needed. thank you.

Mona Lisa.

one of the most precious and beautiful painting in the world.

her smile hides her sorrows. her laughs hides her problems. her personality hides her world.

not everyone can appreciate a painting. but this is not a painting. this is. Mona Lisa.

it is not an object. it is alive. with emotions. with thoughts. with value.

the Beast.

this was an object to his emotions. it was an object to his sins. it was an object to himself.

i am not saying he is dead. but if u view from it from a certain angle. yes he is.

cause he has his life so tied to himself. he thought he had it all. done it all. and continue to do it all.

but what if. one day. the beast. who had it all. lost it all?

I believe this is the test that God is putting through.

hah.

funny.

funny how i mentioned God.

for the most of you who know who i was. u would know that. I don't believe in God.

it is sad that until to this point of life. i only realised. there is one. and there has always been one.

i was just too blinded by my own ego to see it or acknowledge it fully.

I believe this is like how my old friends use to say. "believe me. he will have his ways of approaching you."

should have believed you.

should have not believe the devil.

should have think.

should have learn.

should have died.

When i realised. that i had to change.

that's when. humanity came back.

and like it or not. humans need help. need god. need forgiveness.

guilt.

shame.

understanding.

sorrow.

loneliness.

love.

hate.

regret.

remorse.

careless.

thankful.

and many more.

were a mix of emotions felt within 5 days. you could not imagine the overwhelming feeling. but. Who am I to complain?

i realised it when i broke and stained the Mona Lisa. Something the whole world valued but i din't learn to value. I am lost for words.

All i can do now.

in my ability.

is to change.

i have given deep thoughts about many things.

even whether i should go to that church.

everybody is asking me to stay away from her.

and maybe i should. for after all.

i am the beast.

viva la vida - coldplay.

i am sorry Mona Lisa. I can't give up on you. I don't want to. but if i love you. I guess I have to.

zh3n

2nd mix. when i'm sick.

yeap.

the title says it all.

i'm sick. (like for real. not like i'm sick! yeah!)

this is my second mix.

less planned, more spontaneous.

forgive me again if got mistakes.

before u start. i apologize for a very stupid mistake within the mix =_=

it's at the end. at the party by Uffie / Justice

accidently click play =__=

anyways. enjoy urselfs. or hurt ur ears.

its 30 mins plus.

give it a preload preferably. sorry cant use mixpod. it doesn't support fileden no more.

quality might be abit crappy.

again. comments are appreciated.

zh3n

διάσωση

i suddenly forgot what to type altho i had it in my brain 5 minutes ago... lol.

must be the green environment taking its effect. lol.

did you know that 33 year old Jason Mraz will never get married until same sex marriage is legal?

and no. his fiancée is not a guy. lol.

"And try to picture the man
To always have an open hand
And see him as a giving tree
See him as matter
Matter fact he's not a beast
No not the devil either
Always a good deed doer
And it's laughter that we're making after all"

now.

i don't know about you. but i expect a lot from myself in life.

i like to achieve. and i believe. the best way to achieve is to salvage things.

but can we salvage ourselves?

so what does the line from Mraz have to do with all this?

asking us to picture a man doing perfect rather than destruction?

is it possible to even picture in the first place.

many will start picturing godly figures but stop. pay attention. the line says "man".

i always prefer to count my mistakes rather than the things i did right.

i don't know why. i believe and hope its in everyone of us. hoping to be perfect.

counting ur wrongs. making u wanna be more perfect. ignoring the right we did.

so at the end. we pretty much label ourselves as an un-idealistic human.

I live under the stress of being not perfect but it is the stress that pushes me to be perfect.

i wanted to type "we" instead of "i". but who am i to generalize?

who am i to put any sort of label on humanity. to define it. to show the true path.

and is it healthy to live under the stress of not being perfect? is it right?

and no. this time i did not ask help from god. i ask help from myself.

zh3n

a mix :)

mushi mushi.....

this is zhensern-sann wit the gay ponytail :D

this is my first mix with a program only.

there were be slight mistakes here and there but forgive me as i do not even have proper EQs

all i can say is i tried my best =)

it's 30 minutes long. wit a compilation of 18 diff songs. if including overlapping same songs. its 20.

WAIT FOR a 5 MINS PRELOAD. so it doesn't lag later.

especially if u have slow internet. then yea. preload longer.

it will be worth it :)

Create a playlist at MixPod.com

why does hiatus sound so wierd?

kinda busy.

with college nowadays...

hahah. and honestly. i dun even feel like blogging anymore ==

just giving random updates to keep it alive :D

however. this is not some random update that post one picture wit one titile.

random updates have their meaning too.

this is a proper update.

i am stuck between the....

Numark mixtrack pro which comes wit virtual DJ LE. ( as recommended by bui yan)

i want this shit. but i still wanna do more research 1st.

some reviews argue that hercules mk4 is better.

and it is this small shit....

however. this shit over here. the vestax typhoon. REALLY caught my eye.

comes in red and black too if u hate white and silver...

gah! choices.

these are just digital mixers which are operated through laptops.

optimized mobility for partying anywhere. but are not on the same par as professional EQs ofcos.

i wanna invest on one of these...

to see how far my interest will go. :)

mixing.

is addictive -.-

like a mother fucker.

i remember those days were we used to remember neutron star collision.

and i know these days we do not remember neutron star collision.

life is funny. so go on :)

zh3n

i'm perfect.

JD.

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if i were to dedicate a post to you.

yes.

to you.

LANGUAGE	TRANSLATION
ABÉ	mon ko lo fon
ABOURÉ	u'm wloloho
AFAR	ko kicinio
AFRIKAANS	ek het jou lief / ek is lief vir jou
ALBANIAN	të dua
ALSATIAN	ich hab die lieb
AMHARIC	afekirahalehu (woman to man) / afekirishalehu (man to woman)
Dialectal ARABIC (North African)	n'bghick
Dialectal ARABIC (Eastern)	bahebbak (to a man) / bahebbik (to a woman)
Literary ARABIC	أُحِبُّكَ (ouhibbouka) - to a man أُحِبُّكِ (ouhibbouki) - to a woman
Tunisian ARABIC	nhebbik
ARMENIAN	Ես Քեզ սիրում եմ (yes kez siroum em)
ASTURIAN	quiérote
ATIKAMEKW	ki sakihitin
ATTIÉ	min bou la yé
AZERI	men seni sevirem
BAMBARA	né bi fè
BAOULE	mi klôa
BASHKIR	мин хинэ яратау (min khine yaratau)
BASQUE	maite zaitut
BASSA	me gwes wè
BELARUSIAN	Кахаю цябе (kahaju ciabie)
BENGALI	aami tomakey bhalo bashi
BERBER	hamlagh-kem (to a woman) / hamlagh-k (to a man)
BOBO	ma kia bé nà
BOSNIAN	volim te
BRETON	karout a ran ac'hanout / da garout a ran / me az kar
BULGARIAN	обичам те
BURMESE	nga nin ko chit te
BUSHI-NENGÉ TONGO	mi lobi you
CATALAN	t'estimo
CH'TI	j't'aquiers
CHAMORRO	hu guiya hao
CHECHEN	sun ho ez (to a woman) sun ho vez (to a man)
CHEROKEE	gvgeyui
CHEYENNE	ne'mehotatse
CHINESE (MANDARIN)	我爱你 (wo ai ni)
CORSICAN	amu tè / ti tengu cara (to a woman) / ti tengu caru (to a man)
CROATIAN	volim te
CZECH	miluji tě
DAKOTA	chantechiciya
DANISH	jeg elsker dig
DARI	man tu ra dost darom
DIOULA	m'bi fê
DOUALA	na tondi wa
DUTCH	ik houd van jou / ik hou van je
ENGLISH	I love you
ESPERANTO	mi amas vin
ESTONIAN	ma armastan sind
EWE	me lonwo
EWONDO	ma ding wa
FANG	ma dzing wa / ma gnôre wa
FAROESE	eg elski teg
FINNISH	minä rakastan sinua
FLEMISH (WESTERN)	'k zien je geeren
FON	un nyi wan nu we
FRENCH	je t'aime
FRISIAN	ik hâld fan dy
FRIULAN	o ti vuei ben
FULA	mido yidouma
GALICIAN	amo-te / ámote / quero-te / quérote
GALLO	j'sea un diot do tae
GBAYA	mi ko me
GEORGIAN	me shen mikvarxar
GERMAN	ich liebe Dich
GREEK	Σ' αγαπώ (s'agapo)
GUARANÍ	rojhayhû
GUJARATI	hun tane prem karun chhun
HAITIAN CREOLE	mwen renmen'w / mouin rinmin'w
HAUSA	ina sonki (man to woman) ina sonka (woman to man)
HAWAIAN	aloha wau iā ‘oe
HEBREW	ani ohev otakh (man to woman) ani ohevet otkha (woman to man)
HINDI	main tumse pyar karta hoo (man to woman> mai tumse pyar karathi hun (woman to man)
HMONG	kuv hlub koj
HUNGARIAN	szeretlek
ICELANDIC	ég elska þig
INDONESIAN	saya cinta padamu / saya cinta kamu
INUKTITUT (KALAALLISUT)	asavakkit
IRISH GAELIC	tá grá agam duit
ITALIAN	ti amo
JAPANESE	aishitemasu / aishiteru (barely used) anata ga daisuki desu ("cute")
KABYLIAN	hamlagh-kem (man to woman) hamlaghk (woman to man)
KANNADA	naanu ninnanna pritisutteney
KAZAKH	myen syeni sooyom / myen syeni zhaksi koryem
KHMER	bang srolaïgn ôn (man to woman) ôn srolaïgn bang (woman to man)
KIKONGO	mu me zola nge
KIKUYU	ningwendete
KILUBAKAT	ami nkuswele
KINYARWANDA	ndagukunda
KIRGHIZ	men seni sueum
KIRUNDI	ndagukunda
KOREAN	saranghe
KURDISH	ez te hez dikim
LAO	khoi hak tchao lai
LATIN	te amo
LATVIAN	es tevi mīlu
LIGURIAN	mi te amu / t'amo / t'amu
LINGALA	na lingi yo
LITHUANIAN	aš tave myliu
LOW SAXON	ik hou van ju
LUSOGA	nkwendha
LUXEMBOURGEOIS	ech hun dech gäer
MACEDONIAN	te sakam (courant) / te ljubam (littéraire)
MALAGASY	tiako ianao / tia anao aho (stronger)
MALAY	aku cinta padamu
MALAYALAM	enikku ninné ishtamaanu
MALTESE	inħobbok
MANX	ta graih aym ort
MAORI	kei te aroha au i a koe
MARATHI	majha tujhyavar prem aahe / mi tujhyavar prem karto
MARQUESAN	hinenao au ia oe
MAURITIAN CREOLE	mo konten twa
MBO	mi ding wo
MINA	un lon o
MONGOLIAN	Би чамд хайртай (bi chamd khairtai)
MORÉ	mam nong-a fo
MUNUKUTUBA	mu zola ngé
NAPOLETANO	te voglio bene
NDEBELE	niya ku tanda
NEPALI	ma timilai prem garchhu
NORWEGIAN	jeg elsker deg
OCCITAN	t'aimi
OSSETIAN	æз дæ уарзын (æž dæ waržyn)
PAPIAMENTU	mi ta stima bo
PERSIAN	دوستت دارم (dustat dâram - formal) / duset dâram (informal)
POLISH	kocham cię
PORTUGUESE	amo-te / eu te amo (Brazilian Portuguese)
PUNJABI	mein tenu pyar karda han (male speaker) mein tenu pyar kardi han (female speaker)
QUECHUA de CUZCO	munakuyki
RAPA NUI	hanga rahi au kia koe
ROMANI	kamaù tut
ROMANIAN	te iubesc
RUSSIAN	Я тебя люблю (ya tebya l'ubl'u)
SAMOAN	ou te alofa ia te oe
SANGO	mbi yé mô
SANSKRIT	स्निह्यामि त्वयि (snihyāmi tvayi)
SARDINIAN	deo t’amo (logudorese) / deu t’amu (campidanese)
SCOTTISH GAELIC	tha gaol agam ort / tha gaol agam oirbh
SENUFO	mô mi dènè
SERBIAN	я те волим (ja te volim) / волим те (volim te)
SESOTHO	ke ya ho rata
SHIBUSHI	anaou tiakou / zahou mitiya anaou
SHIKOMORI	ngam hwandzo
SHIMAORE	ni su hu vendza
SHONA	ndinokuda
SINDHI	moon khay tu saan piyar aahay
SINHALA	mama oyata aadareyi (spoken) / mama obata aadareyi (formal)
SLOVAK	ľúbim ťa / milujem ťa
SLOVENIAN	ljubim te / rad te imam (male speaker) / rada te imam (female speaker)
SOBOTA	volim te / se te volime (lit.)
SOMALI	waan ku jecelahay
SONHRAÏ	aye go bani
SONINKÉ	na moula
SPANISH	te amo / te quiero
SUSU	ira fan ma
SWAHILI	nakupenda
SWEDISH	jag älskar dig
TAGALOG	mahal kita / ini-ibig kita
TAHITIAN	ua here vau ia oe
TAJIKI	jigarata bihrum duhtari hola (man to woman) tra lav dorum (woman to man)
TAMIL	naan unnai kadalikiren
TATAR	мин сини яратам (min sini yaratam)
TELUGU	nenu ninnu premisthunnanu
TETUN	hau hadomi o
THAI	ผมรักคุณ (phom rak khun) - man speaking ฉันรักคุณ (chan rak khun) - woman speaking
TIBETAN	na kirinla gaguidou
TIGRIGNA	ye fikireka eye (woman to man) / ye fikireki eye (man to woman)
TONGAN	ofa atu
TSHILUBA	ndji mukunanga
TURKISH	seni seviyorum
TURKMEN	seni söýärin
TUVAN	мэн сэни ынакшир (men seni ynakshir)
UDMURT	mon tone jaratiśko
UKRAINIAN	Я тебе кохаю (ia tebe kohaiu)
URDU	mein tumse mohabbat karta hoon (man to woman) main tumse mohabbat karti hoon (woman to man) mujhe tum se pyar heh
UZBEK	men seni sevaman / men seni yahshi ko'raman (less formal)
VALENCIAN	te vullk
VENETIAN	t'amo
VEPS	minä armastan sindai
VIETNAMESE	anh yêu em (man to woman) em yêu anh (woman to man)
VUTE	ma wou ndoune
WALLISIAN	eau manako ia koe / eau ofa ia koe
WALOON (orthographe à betchfessîs)	dji vs voe voltî
WELSH	rydw i'n dy garu di
WEST INDIAN CREOLE	mwen enmen'w
WOLOF	damala nob / damala beug
XHOSA	ndiyakuthanda
YAKUT	Мин эйиигин таптыыбын (min eyiigin taptyybyn)
YEMBA	men nkon' wou
YENICHE	y hob ti
YIDDISH	ich hob dir lib
YIPUNU	ni wu rondi
YORUBA	moni ife e
ZULU	ngiyakuthand

zh3n